05212013

• milk tea from Tpumps (: 
• sushi aka food makes Bao happy LOL… 
• chilling with friends (E&M  electricity and magnetism l0ljks..) 
• :D I laughed so hard at E’s joke.
• Why was the elephant banned from the pool? Because it keeps dropping its trunk. 
• LOLOL!!!!!!! sorry… I am easily amused.

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• how did I end up with an A+ in lab…….? (I wish my A- and A+ balanced out though, but then again, I can’t get everything. Especially since I put so little effort in that class.))
• my grades are making me happier than I thought they would.
• wow. I really need to be a better student. Why do I say this at the end of every semester and proceed to be even lazier? (LOL..) 

05202013

• finding out that the curve for the class saved my sorry ass. LOL. :( I am really going to be a better student this semester *aka summer. Okay? okay!
• Oh, and I had a really sweet dream last night. ^-^

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I was so happy about the curve that I started dancing/jumping around my room. And I knee’ed(?) the bed frame..LOL. I start wincing.. so badly, my family thought I went crazy..

05192013

• getting an e-mail from a close friend; we haven’t talked for ages..  T3T 
• increased my speed by 6 minutes(?) 

05182013

• mommy made food for me Q____Q 
• started being healthy again
• CHANYEOL’S STUPID TEASER PHOTO (THEY ARE FINALLY BACK. ;u; my precious bb)

05172013; waking up to sweet messages from close friends.

I might have screwed up a lot of times. But I know, I must have done something right in my life, because you guys are in it. 

to do list

After I finish up cleaning my room, i am going to go out for some air. Recollect myself and come back with a to-do list and see how much of my goals I have reached (or failed to meet, lOL). 

But since I am terrible with the constant personal blog posts and the only time that I do post is when I am effing mad/upset, I think I am going back to posting “one thing that made me smile a day” thing. so at least I get a mini blog post for everyday? and  it’s not >:( unhappy. 

because smileeeeeee. you are beautiful when you do. okay? so far all my posts this year contradicts the purpose of my blog. eff you life. LOL. 

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Sometimes, I am scared to be too happy. Because for some odd reason, I think that if I am too happy- something bad is bound to happen.. as if to balance out all the good. I am so cautious. I feel as if my happiness is always the suffering of someone else. Because whenever I am happy, nothing goes right. lols. I think because of this I have become so skeptical. When something good happens, the first thing I think of, “is it okay for me to be happy? what is the price I have to pay afterwards? Will everyone else be okay with the choice I make? Are they going to be upset?” 

lols… I made myself so depressing, but no. There are things that make me happy- like kpop, friends, ….. I don’t even know if I say family at the moment. but yeah, there are things that make me smile, but I don’t feel the 100% genuine happiness sprouting from my heart. 

T: Do you want to meet me at dt at 2:45?
Me: Yeah sure. Where?
T: Um starbucks?

…….LOL. Do you know how many starbucks there are in downtown. l0ls.