Smile,

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Tue, 21 May 2013 21:19:00 -0700

milk tea from Tpumps (:
sushi aka food makes Bao happy LOL…
chilling with friends (E&M ~~electricity and magnetism l0ljks.~~.)
:D I laughed so hard at E’s joke.
Why was the elephant banned from the pool? Because it keeps dropping its trunk.
LOLOL!!!!!!! sorry… I am easily amused.

Edit.

how did I end up with an A+ in lab…….? (I wish my A- and A+ balanced out though, but then again, I can’t get everything. Especially since I put so little effort in that class.))
my grades are making me happier than I thought they would.
wow. I really need to be a better student. Why do I say this at the end of every semester and proceed to be even lazier? (LOL..)

05202013

Mon, 20 May 2013 21:08:00 -0700

finding out that the curve for the class saved my sorry ass. LOL. :( I am really going to be a better student this semester *aka summer. Okay? okay!
Oh, and I had a really sweet dream last night. ^-^

edit.

I was so happy about the curve that I started dancing/jumping around my room. And I knee’ed(?) the bed frame..LOL. I start wincing.. so badly, my family thought I went crazy..

05192013

Sun, 19 May 2013 21:37:09 -0700

getting an e-mail from a close friend; we haven’t talked for ages.. T3T
increased my speed by 6 minutes(?)

05182013

Sat, 18 May 2013 23:35:00 -0700

mommy made food for me Q____Q
started being healthy again
CHANYEOL’S STUPID TEASER PHOTO (THEY ARE FINALLY BACK. ;u; my precious bb)

cosascool: Nanshan Marriage Registration Center by Urbanus

Fri, 17 May 2013 23:49:40 -0700

cosascool:

Nanshan Marriage Registration Center by Urbanus

the only stars in my night sky

Fri, 17 May 2013 23:47:39 -0700

the only stars in my night sky

05172013; waking up to sweet messages from close friends.

Fri, 17 May 2013 11:11:00 -0700

I might have screwed up a lot of times. But I know, I must have done something right in my life, because you guys are in it.

to do list

Fri, 17 May 2013 11:04:08 -0700

After I finish up cleaning my room, i am going to go out for some air. Recollect myself and come back with a to-do list and see how much of my goals I have reached (or failed to meet, lOL).

But since I am terrible with the constant personal blog posts and the only time that I do post is when I am effing mad/upset, I think I am going back to posting “one thing that made me smile a day” thing. so at least I get a mini blog post for everyday? and it’s not >:( unhappy.

because smileeeeeee. you are beautiful when you do. okay? so far all my posts this year contradicts the purpose of my blog. eff you life. LOL.

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Fri, 17 May 2013 09:41:00 -0700

Sometimes, I am scared to be too happy. Because for some odd reason, I think that if I am too happy- something bad is bound to happen.. as if to balance out all the good. I am so cautious. I feel as if my happiness is always the suffering of someone else. Because whenever I am happy, nothing goes right. lols. I think because of this I have become so skeptical. When something good happens, the first thing I think of, “is it okay for me to be happy? what is the price I have to pay afterwards? Will everyone else be okay with the choice I make? Are they going to be upset?”

lols… I made myself so depressing, but no. There are things that make me happy- like kpop, friends, ….. I don’t even know if I say family at the moment. but yeah, there are things that make me smile, but I don’t feel the 100% genuine happiness sprouting from my heart.

Photo

Mon, 13 May 2013 22:58:46 -0700

T: Do you want to meet me at dt at 2:45?Me: Yeah sure. Where?T: Um starbucks? …….LOL. Do...

Fri, 10 May 2013 12:39:36 -0700

T: Do you want to meet me at dt at 2:45?
Me: Yeah sure. Where?
T: Um starbucks?

…….LOL. Do you know how many starbucks there are in downtown. l0ls.

"You have to find the right distance between people. Too close, and they overwhelm you, too far and..."

Fri, 10 May 2013 01:38:22 -0700

“You have to find the right distance between people. Too close, and they overwhelm you, too far and they abandon you.”

- Hanif Kureishi (via hodanggg)

Photo

Fri, 10 May 2013 01:29:20 -0700

Photo

Fri, 10 May 2013 01:26:00 -0700

You can actually feel it.

Fri, 10 May 2013 01:22:31 -0700

annnamazing:

You can actually tell and feel when you’re starting to fade away from someone. The conversations get shorter, they get less meaningful, less exciting. You can feel the wall that’s coming up between you two. And then in the end, you’re back to being strangers.

So, one of the scariest shit happened to me last night...

Fri, 10 May 2013 01:05:00 -0700

I was up pretty late doing some close reading for my paper. I took some tumblr breaks in between.. so I was pretty much working my eyes to death. but anyway, when I stepped out my room to go pee, part of my right eye completely went out on me. I never had great vision in the dark and I always say omg.. I am going blind. BUT HOLY FUCK. I WAS BLIND FOR A GOOD FEW MINUTES. I was peeing and panicking in the dark.

Me: fuck fuck fuck fuck. Why is there a blob of darkness in my eye?!?! WTF IS THIS. fuck. I don’t like this. is this how blind people feel. cause fuck. fuck. fuck. T__T Am I suppose to go to ER or what. wait.. let me turn on the lights. hopefully my vision comes back to me…

… and thank lorddddddddd, it did. :__( I don’t know what happened, but that was some scary shit. Because I don’t want to lose my eyesight ever again okay? OOLOL. AKA I AM HEADING TO BED NOW THAT I FINISH MY PAPER. bye.

juicy-bliss: do you ever see a person you used to be friends with and you’re like “glad i got the...

Fri, 10 May 2013 00:59:04 -0700

juicy-bliss:

do you ever see a person you used to be friends with and you’re like “glad i got the fuck outta that one”

5am.. and still can't sleep. wtf..

Thu, 09 May 2013 04:53:51 -0700

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Thu, 09 May 2013 01:05:00 -0700

:________(

Going off from my last post, :/ I really hate how I am always feeling so tired. It seems like I can never get enough rest. And that doesn’t even make sense, because my schedule isn’t crazily packed this semester; I am not doing anyyy extracurricular! I mean, yes, I have a lot of due-dates and shit thrown at me.. but Idek. I just don’t like feeling exhausted. I need to allocate my time more wisely- like not effing wasting my sleep time on tumblr rambling about useless things like these. Yup, it will definitely help. l0ls. But I don’t wanna stop so.. hm.

T___T I wish time passed slower, so I have more time to procrastinate and breathe- to enjoy the little things in life. I seriously have been locking myself in the library the past few days to get shit done.. and omg, I don’t even know what’s life anymore. And I am going to spend tomorrow writing my paper. … there’s never anything eventful in my life aside from the short hangouts with people in-between class or after class (CRY). Oh and the BAP concert, but yeah that’s basically all.

after finals, I get a week or two of free time. (might go visit people, but then again— i am soooo exhausted, I just want to sleep all of it away.. lols)
then starting the lab intern/assistant + summer classes + potential volunteer/job
^

my summer sounds more hectic than my actual school year.
when am I ever going to be able to catch my breathers and run with the wind?!?! BE WILD AND FREE HMM?!?!?! ~~GO TO KOREA AND STALK PRETTY BOYS LIKE CHANYEOL!?!?~~

lolsssssssssss. ^ late night thoughts

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Thu, 09 May 2013 00:47:16 -0700

I don’t think there’s anyone as clumsy as I am. Or that I know of anyway… lols.

Just this past week, I managed to:

cut myself with a box (don’t even ask how- it just happened. LOL.)
ran into a couple of doors/doorframes
omg.. the most embarrassing one.. I was sitting in one of the cubicles in the library .. when I got up to leave, I ran into the side of the cubicle and hit my face. LOLol. I was just too excited to go, okay? No.. I think it really has to do with my lack with sleep.
Since I am on the list of me getting hurt.. So this Saturday, I was Costco with the fam.. and omg.. my brother never watch where he is going with the shopping cart and he ran (yes, ran- oh that momentum and impact) the cart (full of shit aka more mass aka more pain LOL) into my ankle. It scrapped off a chunk of meat and left an ugly ass bruise around it. So I had a beautiful wound and bruise at the same time and qurl— all good. Doesn’t hurt too bad x_x unless I touch it